HSG

Almost for 2 weeks I didnt attend classes… nw having to think that tmr i’l step into my University again brings me down.. I’m not sure why.. maybe i’ve still very overwhelmed with things that happened to me this month.. 3 huge destructive waves… or maybe one of them is abit constructive one.. it hit me very very hard.. that i keep questioning myself.. why on earth is there such thing could happen in this way?? Unsolved and hang daggling here.. the words and scenes.. are stil so vivid in my mind nw…

Anyhow, HSG (His Sanctuary of Glory) might be the church i’l be attending on every sunday… not used to getting up so early on sundays but guess this is what i will have to do in order to ‘move on’ with my life.. and throw away part of memories that i dont want!!!! And I’m in search for a suitable cell group for me.. yeah, i’l be totally cutting off all the things that have got to do with me and her.. maybe for certain period only.. coz i need time to HEAL and RECOVER as well..going into a church to where anyone will constantly ask or remind me about her its nt a good feeling at all!! Some might think i’m avoding and escaping from facing the problem strongly.. but i do believe that this is another way to help myself to move on with my life… it’s not at all easy to ‘face’ the situation as it’s being written and typed out here.. so, sorry GEPC.. i’ve learnt alot from there and met many amazing people there… especially those friendly pastors… but i guess this is part of God’s plan for me to move forward… anyhw, i stil hope to keep in touch with a few of my fellas bro/sis from there..

sighz.. really dont know what’s in store for me…..

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Published:
June 28, 2009 / 6:00 pm
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Life, Religion, Whining
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