I cant sleep!! I really cant!! I tried many many ways of trying to get to sleep methods but still failed.. alot of things have been bothering my mind alot.. its almost 5am now, i am still wide awake… thinking how pathetic is my life.. why is that very person holds such important place in my heart that created such a huge impact to me once the person is gone??? I felt as if my world stops evolving.. i mean, nt that serious but suddenly a person who hears u, advises u and knows yr thoughts just disappeared out of sudden.. I just dont know who to tell my feelings/problems to nw…. friends i have many but i cant bring myself to share my feelings to… i feel its very fake just to ‘use’ them for temporary relief..
Everyone asked me, what’s going on?? Even my parents who dont seem to care much about the person asked me so much what’s exactly going on.. what can i say?? I always have to stay positive and cheerful to them.. they see me as a very strong person but do they know i’m crying inside? I need someone to share my feelings to? I did try but my mum said i’m silly to feel such way.. I wanted to dump everything behind and go somewhere far to free my mind, but i know it wouldnt help at all because i’m running away from the unsettled problems.. which will haunt me no matter where i go.. conclusion is.. i wont be happy if the problem persists..
I really need to know.. am i such a bad person? What is really happening to my life?????
